Dave left us for a business trip to the UK on Tuesday afternoon. He returns this evening and you would think that I could handle a measley 3 days on my own. I even had my parents with me on Tuesday evening, all of Wednesday and most of Thursday. Easy peasy right? Goodness no. Dave left at 2:30 and by 5pm I started to feel sick with a dreaded cold. When I get a cold my energy levels fall to about 30%. It totally wipes me out. I started with all my herbal regime to stop the cold from taking over my body and for the most part it worked. I felt a little better the following afternoon but then I would eat something that I think had sugar in it (like a dressing) because I had forgotten to look at the ingredients. I will only think about it when my symptoms get worse again. Sigh....(this is really a whine post so please forgive me). Then on Thursday morning Keiran wakes up with Pink Eye. Off to the Doctors at 8:10am to be told that it was probably viral and they said it would clear up on its own. Good from the point of view of not having to give him medication. He's a tad grumpy when he is ill and his horns were showing that day and he sooooo pushed my buttons. It's so hard to be a good mama when he is saying "You are ugly", "Your mean".
The funny thing is I had read a friends email that morning that said words are just words until you give them power. I thought to myself that she is right. If Keiran says hurtful things I just have to realize that he doesn't mean them the same way I am feeling them. Well that thought kind of went out the window when he started in on me. I can't even remember why he was angry. I just know that he has recently found his will and luckily I have discovered a new drink (to me), the blessed mohito. I don't have them very often but boy do they make an effort to sooth the batterings of his tantrums. (I drink them a couple times a month at a local pub-not during his tantrums :-)
Today was the topper of our mere three days on our own. One of our beloved Buffies (chickesn) was killed last night possibly by a raccoon. I was chasing my tail trying to get bedtime going and didn't put them away until late dusk. I didn't realize it until this morning when I found tons of feathers in the chicken yard. You know they are just chickens but it broke my heart that she died under my watch. I couldn't find anything else of her until this afternoon. I spotted her on top of the chicken pen near a tree. We buried her and I cried my heart out. (Keiran got mad at me of course-because I then made him cry) I was one of those children who wouldn't cry when a movie character died, but if an animal died I cried buckets. The annoying thing is that she wasn't even dinner to whatever animal that got her. She just died for no reason.
Dave is driving to the ferry terminal and will soon be home with us again. I hope peace can come to our home once again. Every time he goes away I just really realize how balanced we all are when we are together and how flustered we are when he is away. I notice everything he does in the house and how much I appreciate those small things.
Here are some positive things:
*Sold 254 of the children's books from my Craig's List purchase for $90.00
*Found a few pieces recently of Mikasa Cera stone dishes that I collect
*Sold a book this week for $115.00 about painting
*Sold a All That Jazz CD (purchased 2nd hand) for $30.00
*Planted kale, lettuce, beets, peas and broccoli in my garden
*Planted Cilantro, dill and parsley
*9 Days until our 10th wedding anniversary
I have lots more to write so hopefully my next post will be sooner. Thanks for all your emails wondering if I disappeared under a pile of thrifted finds.