First of all, thank you for your patchwork quilt bids yesterday. I was so excited this morning to see a high bid of $100.00. Fabulous. The bidding closes tomorrow for the honeycomb quilt and then I will add this quilt up for auction with no minimum starting bid. If you have any patchwork items (of any medium) and wish to donate please let me know. I'll continue to donate from my own collection all week.
I hope a post about food and losing weight isn't inappropriate after my help Haiti post yesterday. Sometimes I plan for a different blog post and then I'm moved by something that happened in my life and I just feel compelled to write. I almost feel antsy until I get my thoughts down on paper or in this case in blog form at ATG.
Somewhere around the new year I read aloud an affirmation that Cheryl Richardson had posted on Facebook. She said "Today I pay attention to the little voice inside that knows what my body needs and I do something good to heal and nurture my physical self." She went on to ask us what we did. I kind of smiled when I read her last comment but didn't feel any change. It was later though that I realized that I had lost my taste for coffee. Sounds like a small health thing right? Not for me. I'm one of those coffee drinkers that likes it very white and rich and lusciously creamy. And any regular reader knows that I have a mad obsession about coffee.
My altered taste buds were craving tea and not just any black tea. My body wanted green tea with plum and white tea with pomegranate. Instead of adding organic half and half I instead started adding a wee dash of non-homogenized raw milk. People are on both sides of the fence about whether milk should be homogenized or not. I personally prefer food that is as close to nature as possible so for our family, it is the right decision. My son can't drink store milk without getting a tummy ache but as been able to drink our new raw A-2 milk without any pain.
When I learned that I was celiac five years ago I was severely anemic, had a complexion like someone who hung around with this crowd, and weighed 110 pounds. Being that I am 5'1" this isn't a bad weight but I didn't look very healthy. Following the celiac diagnosis, I went off of gluten and started eating Pamela's brownies once a week to get me through them emotional upheaval of losing so many of my favorite foods. Never again would I separate my Lucky Charm marshmallows from the oat based pieces in my cereal bowl or walk into a Duncan Donuts and order old fashion maple donuts. I'm one of those people who woke up planning my entire days menu in bed including snacks. Heck I used to put food above men in order of importance. As Dave knows sometimes I still do. I make him stop eating popcorn from our shared bowl as I push fast forward on the tivo when we watch tv.
I lived in Washington at the time which also didn't help my weight. September-June every year I tend to hibernate against the cool temperatures of the PNW winters. I would throw on sweater after to sweater to warm my cold bones and eventually I gained weight under those layers of clothing. Many celiacs do gain weight after years of being malnourished. I'm not sure what caused my weight gain exactly, maybe a bit of all three but I went from size 5 with the weight of 110 to size 10 with the weight of 140.
Everything has changed since I moved to California. Overall I feel incredible since moving here. My scanner brain is on overdrive with ideas and I feel that I can actually create what I want to do in my life. And yet part of me though feels held back by this weight. I'm conscious of it when I talk to people, I'm aware of it when I am in a thrift store trying on clothing and I'm concerned about it around my children. I spent 32 years being thin, fit and somewhat healthy (sort of relative with the celiac thing). In my head I'm still 115 and I guess I might as well add that I feel age 22 while I'm at it.
I don't want to be overweight. I also don't want to be the size of those sticks and bones Anthropologie models that have been showing up lately in my inbox. What's that about? I want to be healthy and look after my body. I want to be a positive role model to my children so that they can see that their mother eats well, exercises and thinks positive thoughts about her body.
Remember this post about growing up ugly? As I am working to get my body healthy I have to reread those words and remind my head about self-image. I still struggle with this daily even though I try to tell myself affirmations. I try to believe them. The one I am current using is "I'm beautiful in the eyes of God". Between using Cheryl's health affirmation and this self-image one, something has to change.
After thanksgiving I went to a secret consignment store sale where every item was $5.00. I bought the sweetest pair of Lucky jeans with flower embroidery on the leg. They were too small and I couldn't even fasten the waist. I told myself though that I was going to fit into those jeans. Last Friday I took them out of the closet, told my body that I would fit into them (they were size 8) and they slipped on like butter. Not only that but they were comfortably loose.
I'm frugal when it comes to weight loss. I won't buy into any health programs, I buy all my diet style books at yard sales like Perfect Weight America, and I won't dare go near a health club. I've tried them before and unless it's right outside my front door I won't make the time to get there. I've bought $10 torture devices but I tend to have to go to the emergency room too often after attempting that kind of exercise. Maybe I'll eventually find one that works well with my clumsiness.
Here's my frugal exercise kit:
- Thrifted running shoes (some suggest buying only new...I've been very pleased with my $3.00 nearly new pair.
- keep exercise close to home - I head out the front door with corgi on leash and run around the block. So far this year I have run 4 times which is 4 more times than 2009
- Cut out the half and half/drop coffee completely
- Switch to Green or White tea -both high in antioxidants (look for posh white tea at Tuesday Morning discount store)
- Cut down on cheese (another taste that I just don't crave anymore)
- use thrifted exercise equipment - summer is a better time to buy than January.
- Think weight loss thoughts/affirmations
I don't own a scale anymore so I'm unsure of my current weight. I know that I still have quite a journey to go but I feel that on day 19 of the new year I've started the changes for my weight loss. My mind has switched gears miraculously and I want to make changes happen. I'm sitting so comfortable in my size 8 jeans right now that it leaves me feeling hopeful of the year to come. I should add that I haven't cut down on any fat except my loss of taste for coffee (cream) and cheese. I even ate three pieces of the birthday cake on the week of the 10th. I'm working to increase exercise, tone muscles, choose nutrient dense food with necessary protein (and occasional treats) and think positive thoughts about losing weight. 2010 is going to be my year.
Do you have any frugal weight loss suggestions?