Apron Thrift Girl became the name for my blog nearly 5 years ago because I fell in love with my little 1927 cottage. When I moved into our vintage home I was drawn to aprons like a moth to a flame. I couldn't get enough of them. Soon enough I had around 60 aprons and a blog that was growing and changing.
I don't really collect aprons any more although I'll buy one from time to time. I'm still fond of them and love the collection that I have. My favorite is one from the World's Fair in Seattle.
During the last year and a half I've worn my apron a handful of times. Up until last Friday, Dave worked from home and tended to work strange hours in order to take advantage of the time difference between California and England. He'd awake around 5 a.m. to go to work and stepped out of his home office around 4 p.m. He took over making dinner, washing dishes and doing the laundry while I focused more time on my blog and ReSelling business. We fell into a wonderful and comfortable routine.
Life became challenging right before Christmas last year. We lost our financial security, our lives became stressful and we had no idea when things would get better. The day after Dave received some challenging news regarding his job, our second car was rear ended and considered "totaled". Christmas was difficult especially since we didn't want to spend the money to travel north to where my family was spending the holiday. We had never experienced such a stressful time as that December and January. Yet for Dave and I, we became closer and our family became stronger. Losing our corgi in March hurt more than anything. We still carried on though. We stayed close.
It's times like this that you question why life is leading you down such a path of loss. Yet in some ways maybe it was just part of our life's journey. That's what we tried to tell each other. Often.
Today Dave starts his new job in the city. He'll work Monday through Friday in San Francisco and he'll have an office on Market Street. He'll once again have co-workers, meetings (in person rather than conference calls), an office and thankfully for our family; a good salary with fabulous benefits. There are even company events that include families.
I'm so happy for him and relieved. A part of me is sad though. 15 years on I'm still head over heels in love with the man. I'm a little heartbroken that most of my day will be without him. And I'm sad that he'll arrive home after the children and I have had dinner. We gain so much with this new job and yet we lose so much too.
I'm trying to be strong but during the last week I've had a roller coaster of emotions. Yesterday was my first day alone in the home. He was at a training day in the East Bay. I kept busy and when Cerys and Keiran arrived home I tied my apron strings around my waist and once again became the mom that made them snacks, cooked them dinner, encouraged Cerys's cello music and washed the dishes. It felt oddly familiar and yet still in a way; strange.
I feel a little numb at the moment and unsure about how to cope with the next 15 years or so. I know that millions of people work out of the home. I just became spoiled during the last 8 years of seeing so much of my husband. I'm blessed that we both raised Keiran from a year and a half to present day. Dave was able to attend so many school events and concerts. He was able to take Cerys to her cello lessons on Tuesday evenings. He was really able to be a hands on father.
Balance is something that I'm going to need to focus on. My work day hours have been cut short. My weekends will include less thrifting because our time together as a family will be so much more precious. I've already dusted off my Nest Planner and have began meal plans and writing up shopping lists. I had to stop at the grocery store after dropping the children off at school which is something that I never do. So many little changes. My life was already very full before this change. I'm guessing something will have to give but I haven't decided what to let go of.
We've decided that my ReSelling will pay for the Waldorf school so that I have a financial goal to aim for every month. Anything extra will go into our House Fund or back into the business. I'm going to reconfigure ATG and see if I can come up with more ways to make it pay for itself. I love this blog but with my free time being cut, something has to change. If you have any ideas I'd love to hear them. You can email me through the Contact tab at the top.
It's important more than ever that I stick to my new ReSelling goals where I sell higher end items rather focusing on small items. I'm feeling very optimistic that it will work. The key with all of this though is balance, balance and balance.
I'd love to hear your favorite tip for finding balance in your life.