Remember the teaser I mentioned a few weeks about about a book that has sort of shown me the key to my heart and soul? I had lots of readers ask me what the book was and I felt a bit guilty for having not shared the title. I wanted to describe it in a long post where I could fully explain why it had such an impact on me. But I wanted to finish it first and I'm still only a 1/3 in while I'm finishing another book for a review post tomorrow. So I've procrastinated on sharing about the book until now. I still haven't finished it but since my ReDo Tuesday project is from the book, then I guess I just have to spill the beans.
You know those moments that lead up to something very important in your life that you don't understand until it happens? That is how I found this book. When I was in California I was searching for the right paint for a picture I had drawn. I tried it with cheap paints and it didn't work. I drove all the way out to Michaels and bought some different paint but it didn't include the color white which means I really couldn't make a proper pink. I didn't want to drive out to Michael's again so I found a small independent art store that was closer. I popped in, found my paint and left the store. Realizing I had some extra time before farm camp was over, I looked in the shop next door. It was a mix of vintage and new items. I normally can't stand these stores and the smell of artificially fragrance candles was a bit overpowering. But they might have had some of Ben's dishes poking out of a corner, so I would just hold my breath. Peeking at me from under an embroidered dish towel was a used book. Again it was one of those times where I was told to just pick it up without knowing why. Not voices in my head but good old intuition. I did, I read the back, I debated the $5.99 price and I bought it.
The name wasn't terribly catchy to me, Refuse to Choose, but the content was. The back of the book read "I'm fascinated by something new every week. I can't commit to anything-I'm afraid I'll miss something better! I start so many things but finish almost none of them. I know I should focus on one thing but which one."
I was hooked from just reading those words but then it said, "Unlike people who are satisfied with one area of interest, you're genetically wired to pursue many areas, and that's exactly what you've been trying to do. But because your behavior is unfamiliar-even unsettling-to the people around you, you've been taught that you're doing something wrong and told you must decide on one path."
That's when I said Oh My God. That's me. That is how I have always felt about my life. You mean there are other people like me? I even sent Dave a text that read "I'm not a freak". He returned my call soon after and said "What?".
I could write pages and pages about this book. It is so life changing to realize that I'm not alone in my quirky outlook on life. I've always said that I never tried any drugs because I didn't need them. I had highs and lows all of my life, why would I need to take anything to mimic that. When I am up and feeling passionate I feel on top of the world. The downs aren't so good but they balance out the highs. I now understand why I want to try practically everything and anything. I want to go to cooking school, become an actress, travel the world, learn Spanish, write back words (which I'll admit I am pretty good at), learn every word in the dictionary (I know it sounds odd) (I stopped somewhere after the 30th word although abecedarian is by far my favorite one), read every book in a library and so on. If this sounds at all familiar, you may want to get your hands on this book. Quickly.
Barbara Sher's book was not only helpful to realize that I am not alone but she sets up a plan for this way of thinking. She even talks about how to find a career that we will not become bored with. If we go back to my early days to present, I wanted to be a Veterinarian, teacher, preschool teacher, au pair (which I did for two months), writer, actress, travel agent, work behind the scenes for tv, news reporter, private investigator, vampire slayer, consignment shop owner, children's author and probably even more that I can't think of right now. My latest thought after starting her book is an Idea Coach. Do you think anyone would pay for an idea? I have a zillion of them
This brings us back to ReDo Tuesday, the Rolodex. Within one week I read this passage in Barbara's book and I found this post on Carrie B's blog. Barbara knows how we think. That we have idea after idea and yet we don't know what to do with them. She came up with the suggestion of writing down each idea or dream and putting them in a rolodex. That way we can carry blank cards in our back pocket or handbag so that we are prepared. So many ideas come to me when I am out doing errands or driving around trying to find a yard sale. Then I found Carrie B's colorful idea rolodex. I was going to make one too.
I found this one but it was far too boring for me. Although the price was right.
.95 cents from Vinnie's. It's metal and I don't even know what metal paint looks like. I just knew I wanted to paint it quickly so I snuck the hallway paint another project into the craft room when Dave wasn't looking and gave her a coat of paint.
Then I added a few bits and bobs to make her a little prettier then just paint.
I will confess I try not to shop at Walmart but a few times a year I wander up the hill to the store and buy a few things. Especially if I don't want to make the extra trek to Michaels. But when did Martha start selling her goods there? How did I miss that?
When I ReDo something, I tend not to plan ahead what it will look like. I'd love to plan but ideas only come to me once I start a project. It sort of evolves as I go. I had no idea it would turn out this way.
I did know that I wanted to keep the inside simple and quick. I was very excited to start filling the idea rolodex. I went with my favorite aqua and red theme influenced by this swap. I so want to take part in another. Anyone game?
Like I said, very simple. This is just a start of the idea categories.
Food for anything kitchen, cooking, decorating
Give for present ideas, wishlist, things to make or buy
Craft for any craft, art, sewing ideas
Home for anything to do with real estate thoughts, remodeling, decorating
Blog ideas
Child for any ideas to do with the children, parenting, celebrating, birthdays
Write for ideas to do with writing whether it be for my journal or book to write or magazine article or magazine idea
Read for books to read, where to read, books to share, thoughts on books
Roam for anything to do with travel. My first idea that I scribbled down will go in the Roam category.
I think I am so easily influenced by others. I'm not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing. But after seeing this trailer I was hooked on the idea of wanting one. I would add a Vespa to my Roam ideas too even if Dave doesn't think it is safe enough. I certainly couldn't thrift on one but I could do errands around town when it wasn't pouring with rain.
My goal with this idea rolodex is not only to have a place to write down my ideas but a place that I can visit and ponder on how to make these ideas and dreams become a reality. Barbara calls the personalities in her book "scanners" because we are always scanning the horizon for something new. I'm not sure I connect with the word scanner partly because I use one for bookselling and it's hard to mix the two. But I connect with her writing and her description of a scanner. Barbara says, "A scanner must find a way to follow every path that interest her. There's nothing else a scanner can do, for three compelling reasons. A scanner can't have fewer interest. They are designed to do more. Second scanners don't want fewer interest. Finally scanners can, so they must, explore many things. Most scanners aren't as attached to stability as other people. They seem to have retained the inborn security of a young child, the same love of what's new, the drive to learn and understand everything they see."
The last part left my eyes a little bit moist. I couldn't believe what I was reading. Does anyone else have goosebumps?
ReDo Rolodex cost:
rolodex .95 cents plus tax
paint: .40 cents -used snuck a can from another project
fabric: .20 cents -fabric from flea market
paper for Category Cards $1.00 -old creative memory stock
vellum for categories $1.00
font $1.00 on sale at scrapNfont, ck cordial
extra rolodex cards .5 cents st vinnies
glue .20 cents
total cost: $4.80